we awoke in each other's eyes //

whatever

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 20:17:47 GMT

instead of being all upset over the fact that monica melia likes to talk about how i gained weight im just gonna loose it bc ha i know i have i just dont understand why she has to take such a notice and bring it to other people. thats just a typical girl though starting drama to make other girls feel like shit so they can feel better. fucking retarded. anyway today i suppose im hanging out with neil then studying for biology bc i need to do better in school then sleep by 10 then up at 5 for a jogg blah
oh well if i dont like my body all i can do is do somehting about it right?

bye loves<3

some would say your life was sad

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 14:55:31 GMT

hey guys im sorry i havent updated in awhile but i shall start updating again bc i <3 my lj. i suppose ill fill ya in on how everything sbeen etc.

school - its ok iv been doing poorly already:( but im not like failing .

neil - today is actually our 4 month. were doing ok i suppose. :\

fun?- i guess iv been having fun, not as muichy as i had in summer though oh my god i miss it.

my sweet 16 is in 19 days im extremly excited but i sitll dunno about my party i know i wanna have one but idk im lost.

i just wanna be 16 <33

i dont have a job anymore as of right now and it sucks:(

i miss my mother more than ever .

i have nothign else to talk about

poeace loves.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 01:51:43 GMT

Main Entry: high school
Function: noun : A place that consists of Drama Kings & Queens. And total immaturity. Where people feel it necessary to induldge in making others lives miserable by: Spreading vicious rumors, Making fun, Gossiping, & other rude things that, we all know about. It's a place where those who attend need to mature, & grow up. A road to success, if followed without TOTAL conflit. It's a place where those who attend, are at the ages to live & have fun. So one shouldn't spoil someone else's fun, with rumors, &/or rude remarks.

wonderfully writen by the beautiful julia raven reina :) <33

schools tomarrow:( goodbye summer it was fun:
sneaking out liek everynight
getting so crunk:D
being weith my love :)
campouts .. ;)
nordahls party!!
carnis
staying up all nignt making things
staying up all night with brew just talking n laughing
the ville.
the glen
partying at the bridge. haha
julie like living here
helping brew with ehr hangovers lmao.
cosgroves<3
hanging out all night with mel.

wow am i gonna miss. but next summer will only be better

♥ peace.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 09:35:42 GMT

hello sweets (: oh life has been amazing. iv been having alott of fun latly and not letting anyhting bother me its glorious. schools in less than a week and i need school cloths, badly. i cant wait to go shoppping bc well i love shopping. im in an amazing mood , plus im very hyper. i kinda wanna go back to school i miss everyone n stuff. plus its not that bad considering i dont wake up till 2 anyway. haha well tonight because of so much boredrem?? lmao. i was a huge camera whore so yeah heres a few :)

i know a need a life.

fuck you pee pell

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 04:15:53 GMT

ok so i have some random stupid pictures.

so the other day i got really bored and thus took pictures of myself eh what else is new?

then i got boring, which is no surprize so i took randoms.

i love penny. alot.

my dad loves me

and i love locking myself in a room making funiture :D

so while i was at work yesterday julie came over and her n brew camera whore;d

lol i made that when i was a tad bit angry

brew got a little perverted i see. what else is new

then i got home and they decided to take pcitures of me in my sweet dishwashing outfit.

then we went out, it was funn. then fell alseep.

so this morning me n brew decideed we;d take pictures of our gross morning selfs.

yuMMM.

i look scared.

i bought these tonight and i <3 them.

goodbye faggots.

id rather fall myself then have u drag me on down.

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 07:20:43 GMT

so school starts , in 10 days. that fucking sucks . so tonight i realized i need to start having alot of fun in those 10 days.tonight btw was amazing anyway... im not gonna wait around waiting for a certin someone;) to call me and hope maybe for once he'll want to see me, bc most likly he doesnt, im going to start saying yes to my invites to hanging out from all my friends and have the best rest of summer ever.

im not gonna sit in my room listening to music waiting for a call that i never get.

peace♥

oh & btw addme bitches myspace.com/your_k0nstantine

but with all my inspiration gone,its not getting me very far

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 22:28:56 GMT

so i should prolly update. nothings really happened latly, nothing good atleast. i didnt join fh bc eh i cant stand the coach:) but im deff gonna miss fh and ill prolly end up playing next year but anyway. summers almost over which means i have to have alot of fun beore school starts. im gonna be 16 in like 50 days haha as you can tell im excited. and im pretttty sure im having a party :). me and neil havent been what you would call wonderful and it makes me sad. i hope all the stupid shit goes away n we get all happy for good!. hm i actually have money , but i dont have my job back completly yet:(. yeha im just ramboling.

let the insults n drama begin i suppose thats what i get for updating.

♥

its to dieing in anothers arms.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 19:01:24 GMT

haha i look so annoyed.

sexy hair i know.

for some reason , this picture = <33

yep when were not ripping out eachothers hair we <3 eachother :)

i have to stop wearing that sweater.

deep in the woods, quite scary i must say

words cud not say how much i <3 this bridge.

you can tell i get bored, and like to color

hahahhaaha

brew sitting on the most amazing couch

your jealous, i know.

i doo like popcorn.

+

=

:) peace out loves .

if you dont like my fire then dont come around

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 18:07:04 GMT

:( , just :(.

but i did get my cell fone back :)! same number.

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 16:12:32 GMT

i really dont even feel like writing in here anymore whats the use ? to get critizied ? and yeah annoymous people do bother me bc im gay idk

i cant wait till like sunday

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 15:38:56 GMT

ok so neil left for the shore at like 4 am this morning and from the second he got off the fone with me last night i miss him so much its sick . :( this is gonna SUCK.

i wanna feel you breathing

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 13:20:39 GMT

so its 9;30 am and i didnt sleep and im all happy on caffine haha. and im extremly bored so why not update? the past few days have been great iv been spending alot of time with neil which is good bc hes leaving me in like 2 days for like 5 days for the beach:( . anyway. so i was reading my whole journal for some un known reason and it made me think alot,, a. i care way to much about what people think of me so from now & now its , IF YOU DONT LIKE ME YOU CAN FUCK YOURSELF. the people who do hate me i have done absolutly nothing to and its so retarded so they can just die idc anymore. b. i need to stop whineing & just try to make the best of things & c. idk iv got nothing. so out with the emo and in with the im gonna make the best of everything and stop letting people who dont even leave their name critize me bc sadly there prolly the same people who when they see me act like were bestfriends so fuck it :) i really wanna take pictures but i cant bc i have no batteries and im so poor i cant even buy like , gum seriously its sad. I HATE IT:( but i did go to the mall today and i got 2 really cool skirts a shweet ring and pants so that was good. well time for more coffee then shower then hanging out with my lover pies soonish , yay

♥ you all ; peace outtt

neils howt.

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 06:25:36 GMT

hay lo :) the past few days have been fun and full filled. & im sickenly happy at the moment. soo yesterday i hung out with stephie and brew all morning and we worked on our tans and talked it was nice then shortly after i hung out with my sweeetie pieee :) which was great as always , that kid makes me overly happy. so anyways today i went to this gay check up for my teeth and it was real gay but i got to eat real food for like the first time after wards so it was worth it :) then i came home and jess comes to pick me up and we went to moes to meet neil then me danny neil amanda jess & christene ? went to the glen and to the " log " omg SO SCARY , we heard all this shit and like tapping on the car. if you like to be scured, go there! so after a long while of hanging out we all went home and here i am writing this entry haha peace out loveers ♥

a killer in me, is a killer in you.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 03:50:44 GMT

i hate that im insecure &i hate that i NEVER feel good enough for anything
thats such an unatractive quailty to have ew. i really really hope that feeling goes away soon. :(. anyway today started off so horribly. i hate like the worst time so i went home then decided to go back to town bc neil was there & i thought it was necessary
(sp?)for us to talk , and for some gay reason im really really forgiving towards that kid lol. i guess thats good though why stay mad about things , there gonna happen so
fuck it. i guess were good now , atleast i hope so.

i need to have more fun this summer. bc its all going to waste :( idk things can only get better right? they always get better.

tomarrow i think im getting a new cell fone +++ finally !!
&& i think im hanging out with neil , so im pretty happy for the 1st time in days.

peaceout♥

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's the True You?

how i wish you were here

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 22:07:46 GMT

new layout , do you guys like?

anyway, ill be updating more soon , i promise ; nothings really happened latly, i got my wisdom teeth out and it
fucking sucked really bad, and it still really hurts so iv just been sitting home being bored. but updates soon ♥

since its summer i prolly wont update much. butt

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 17:06:36 GMT

these are from forever ag0 im just lazy enjoy : ) <3

lmao. , thanks puggs

lmao please disregard weirdness of these pics : )

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:59:07 GMT

pictures from last night , ps. these pictures were all taken by megan pants <3

bnlah

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:17:53 GMT

i hate moments like these , when every aspect of your life is gone to shit. even if its for a few hours or something it makes me wanna die mainly bc im highly sick of it and its never gonna get better. i think my dad has head problems , and that will prolly get repeated to him but maybe he sud hear it . hes got problems and i wanna move out and i cant stand when people arte mean to me bc im an extremly weak peson.

finally updating

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 05:29:46 GMT

ah so i should prolly update it has been quite the while. okie so lifes pretty okay actually besides the constant feeling of never feeling good enough im pretty happy. me and neil are doin pretty good and im FINALLY ungrounded , oh its glorious. hmm for the past eh week? iv just been grounded then went over neils and downtown and stuff , pretty nifty i suppose. tomarrows the 4th of july and i have NO IDEa what im doing yet but ill most likly be with neil.

the lover of my life is home, welcome home laura <3333 i deff gotta hangout with her soon shes my bestfriend ever NO ONE cud ever begin to replace her. ahh

anyways , i have some pics and ill takre more then poist them tomarrow * promise

peace out ♥

i stole this off someone hmm

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 08:29:14 GMT

Leave an anonymous comment.
.. a secret, what you think about me, a random thought, something you wanted to tell me but couldnt.. anything at all.

♥

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 09:16:16 GMT

screw insomia.

hmmm i know i havent updated in a while but i figure whats the use ? everything i put in here is repeated to my dad and thats just gay.

im grounded at this moment and it sucks so i dont feel like talking about things so my dad can hear about it.

i cant have shit and nothing ever goes right

yep peace out loves ill update when im ungrounded and shit ♥

i dyed my hair...

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 02:00:56 GMT

so i dyed my hair reddish t0day & i dont like it hmm //
what do u guys think ??

bye bye 10 pounds

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:42:08 GMT

i lost 10 pounds since school let out !! im so happy

im happy yay

anyway im pretty emo right now.but i just got done talkin to my dads girlfriend; shes really awesome prolly one of the first motherly figures iv had that actually stayed ; heh ;she made me realize alot of stuff. I ♥ my dad yeah i admit it without him id deff be in fostercare or something gay awah yay for my dad yep yep i have work soon so ill update later<3

pennny get betterr

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 05:29:16 GMT

t0day was sad and stupid. my penny is really sick :( shes goin to the vet tomarrow im praying she makes it so i spent the whole day taking care of her and cuddleing with her shes doin a little bit better at the moment so i took like a million pics well ya know incase :( (dont mind my lack of make up and ugliness) k heres some pics

thats all :( ♥

0h annoymous commenter " kD " i have onee last thing to say to you..

ohhh yeah and

_________thesex

bad dayy

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 03:38:32 GMT

hmm so today was alright i was extremly anti social for some reason so i litteraly stayed in my room all day lol ; it was ok i niftied up my room pretty good i cleaned it real good and while i was in the process my dad decides to flip out n throw my cloths everything and knock over stuff so i was like ok whagev er and cleaned my room again im assuming he felt bad bc he gave me his 12 horse sign and he put up this big mirror iv wanted to for awhile its nifty haha he put it up and look at it then my bed and he shook his head i found it amusingg. so i covered it with pictures of people i love and now here i am well i think ill be doing stuff tomarrow so ill update later <3